Being Receptive to the Lessons
Our Teachers Appear…
There are people we meet on our paths that, regardless of what they call themselves, we later realize they were our teachers. We end up learning things from them that forever shaped our walks. I have been working with our Sun King Truffle lately and I have been feeling its influence weaving in and out of my consciousness, even on the days I’m not actually eating them. After waking up, I again noticed there was something heavy lingering beyond my reach so I sat down and meditated and the Sun King's influence was palpable. I then heard a song I have not heard in ages. It was a song that belonged to one of my greatest teachers and they had learned it from their grandmother. Today I heard the Grandmother sing it for the first time, for she had passed over long before I had met my remembered friend. It’s in a language I do not speak, yet today I understood her words. I had parted ways with her grandchild a couple of decades ago after I saw a great darkness and sickness in them that I could not reconcile.
Today she asked me why I never tried anything to help heal her grandchild the way that her grandchild gave much of their own life to healing and helping others including myself. Wow. Honestly it had never even occurred to me. In my mind, certain things were unforgivable and that kind of thinking was becoming my own darkness and sickness. I humbly apologized to both her and her grandchild and all others that were witnessing my up-until-now shortsightedness and then she and I did a healing ceremony for her grandchild.
We stood in a fire and sang her song with a drum beating a heartbeat in the background. On every first beat, she and I merged and became one, a tall presence in the center of the fire. On every second beat, we split and became two while never losing the connection. Back and forth we worked our healing and I learned so much about this medicine that we all share. I feel contented and cleansed. I feel free and unburdened. I never realized how much this weighed me down. I try not to tell people what to expect from a particular truffle or plant because the truth is, only the plant knows.
…When We Are Ready
If we go into an experience with expectations and parameters it's like we are setting up our ceremony in a box with rigid sides making it difficult for it to become anything else. We need to trust ourselves and trust all that are out there trying to help us. Just like we may not realize someone was a teacher at first glance, we may not realize the gifts and the teaching that await us when part of us thinks we somehow understand them already.
~ October 2021
